The Arboretum

I love the arboretum. I cannot believe that we lived in this town for 15 years before we discovered it. I love the seasons there...today I got to see winter. It was divine. I felt like I was at my beloved Oregon coast honestly. The air was misty, the grounds were breathtaking, and the vibe is just so.......so. In the fall the place is covered in pumpkins...spring and summer, there are actually flowers called sparklers that look like the real thing. The best part? Our picnic spot on the hill over looking the lake. This is a hill that little one rolls down, runs down, dances down, falls down...and laughs, and laughs. One day he rolled and fell down it, all while holding onto a homemade chocolate chip cookie from our picnic. Today I'm attaching a photograph of me and little charlie by the infinity pool...another of my favorite things. Love, love, love.

p.s. Yes, that leaf in my hand was a gift from my sweet son and it came from this magical place too, can you believe it?

a merry little dessert

So, big Charlie decided out of the blue that he wanted chocolate pecan pie for Christmas day. He had never had one, but for some reason really, really wanted one. I said okay and found a recipe. I actually found 5 and melded them together leaning toward the most chocolaty of them (this was a good choice...just ask Charlie). I love this pie because while it is extremely decadent and truly divine, it is easy as pie to make. Marie Calendar has started making frozen, ready made pie crusts and they were perfect. We had too much filling, so my mother-in-law took the second frozen crust out of the tin, popped it in the microwave, and we broke it into pieces and began molding it artistically around a few little glass baking dishes. These little mini pies turned out not only adorable, but my favorite of the day. Here are some photos and the recipe follows. Enjoy! xo

Chocolate Pecan Pie

3 eggs

1 cup of Karos syrup

2/3 cup of sugar

1/2 tsp of salt

1/3 cup of butter softened

1 tsp of vanilla

1 cup of pecan (large pieces)

1 1/2 cup of chocolate chips

Mix together eggs, syrup, sugar, salt, butter, and vanilla well. Fold in pecans and chocolate chips. Pour into a 9" pie shell (or if you use the Marie Calendar shells, use one for a full pie and mold the second crust into 2-3 mini pies). Preheat oven to 350 degrees and bake 50 minutes or until the center is set. (It will jiggle a little, but will be mostly set). Enjoy this beautiful pie.

Christmas cards out...check!

I just got my christmas cards out...I stayed with it and I am really proud of that part. It's funny because the ones that were the most difficult were the ones that I was the most happy to have sent. Most especially the one to my cousin, with a hand written recipe for Lemon Lush pie enclosed...a recipe found at an amazing little restaurant on the Oregon coast while visiting my dear aunt aggie...a recipe that she was able to get because she had connections and knew the chef...a recipe made even more precious to me after she died quite suddenly in March. Yes, that was a card that needed to go out. I called and told my mom that my cards just went out and she laughed and said, your cards always go out after christmas...it's a tradition! Well, on that note, Merry Christmas (a little late) to each and every one of you. xo

Wish Cookies...

We discovered Nyakers this Christmas. It is an amazing and delightful little cookie. I don't know what I like best, the cookie or the story. This is how it goes...you place the cookie in the palm of your hand, make a wish, and break it. If it breaks into three pieces, you get your wish. It is truly magical. Here are some photos of my charlie and his wish cookie, broken into three....make a wish sweet boy.

I just know it's gonna come true. xo

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...

We got an amazing and spectacular tree! It's an "emerald" tree from the pacific northwest (like me) and it is so beautiful. Little one and I are running around the house, me in my jingle bell apron and snowflake hat, and him in his cowboy hat, underpants and cowboy boots, pulling out decorations. It is so amazing to see what comes out of each box...oh, the memories. I already have everything that will light up, lit. We just unpacked our singing frog that sits on the kitchen table singing and ribbeting...what other treasures are in these boxes?

I have become my mother...

So...I finally said it..."If you don't have anything good to say, don't say anything at all..." You know, it took four years to have a moment that it was relevant, and what was really crazy is that I didn't see it coming. It just came out of my mouth so naturally, and I knew that it was exactly what needed to be said.

The Doing

"but the biggest mistake I made is the one that most of us make while doing this. I did not live in the moment enough. this is particularly clear now that the moment is gone, captured only in photographs. there is one picture of the three of them sitting in the grass on a quilt in the shadow of the swing set on a summer day, ages 6, 4 and 1. and I wish I could remember what we ate, and what we talked about, and how they sounded, and how they looked when they slept that night. I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner, bath, book, bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less."

anna quindlen

Scabs, beautiful scabs

Explaining to my three your old about scabs:

Charlie: What’s a scab mama?

Me: Well, when you get hurt, a scab grows over the boo boo and then stays there and protects the boo boo until it heals.

Charlie: Then what happens?

Me: It falls off because you are healed and you don’t need it to protect you anymore.

Charlie: Oh..that’s right.

You know? Scabs are perfect and they are a lot like life…we are protected in all of the exact right moments (we can see this looking back, not always at the time), and then we are let go to fly when we are all better...

Time passed through her and became a song

Now it is fall...the trees are amazing, my sweet boy turned four a few weeks ago, everything pumpkin is everywhere and time keeps on going. The good news for me is that I am full of inspiration, very joyful, and very close to really embracing this blog of mine....

Summer time...

I cannot believe I haven't written all spring and now it's July. I got lost in my days and now I am back...time to write again. Soon....

Thank You

Winter wonderland...here we are in our little snow white world today. I love living in a place where it gets cold, but only long enough to really enjoy it. We took advantage of every minute of it that is for sure. They are predicting snow for next Thursday, a snow day for mama? wish............................xo

The Little Things

Enjoy the little things for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things...

A partridge in a pear tree...really! so we begin the winter break (hooray) and I open my window to see the day...in the tree outside our bedroom window is literally a partridge in OUR pear tree! The amazing part was that a few weeks earlier, I had picked up a vintage painting from christmas 1968 of a bird in a pear tree at goodwill. I hung it in my bathroom because for whatever reason, it speaks to me. So imagine my surprise when our pear tree became the home of our very own partridges. :) Anyhow...we have spent the last two weeks waiting for the last two pears to drop, nestled underneith our electric blanket throw (pure luxury), singing frosty the snowman and yes...on the twelvth day of christmas too..xo

Happy, happy new year to all who see this note and to all of those who may not. The new year is the greatest thing. I love the feeling of a new beginning...a clean canvas....what will this year bring?

Meanwhile, I am humbled by what I already have and the life I get to live each day...it is full of treasure and delight and big love. Who could ask for more?